THAT FEELING...

Nothing beats the sensation of falling in love. The continual butterflies doing little fluttery somersaults in your tummy. The silly smile plastered across your face when you think of them. The giggles to yourself when you remember that time when… It’s got to be the best feeling in the world. And what’s better, I get to do it a second time around with the same person. The Cyclist and I are falling in love again and what makes this time round even better is that there are no unexpected surprises, so the nervousness usually accompanied with the head over heals sensation is not there… just the wonderful wonderful fluttery little butterflies!

We were in The Big Smoke this weekend for a very long overdue wedding. The couple is question had known each other for 18 years and been together for 15 of those years. Wow! They were the first to meet of their friendship group and essentially the last couple to tie the knot. It was gorgeous. The groom’s face as she walked down the aisle was unforgettable. She was crying, he was barely keeping it together. It was one of the most romantic weddings I have been to purely because of the nature of the couple. You could see that even after 18 years, those butterflies were there and fluttering away as if they’d just downed a couple of redbulls!

The Cyclist and I sat together smiling and giggling to each other like teenagers. We even took pictures of ourselves smiling and giggling and kissing. It was magic! After spending almost 4 years together and then taking an unexpected and rather emotional 6 month sabbatical from each other (and ourselves I think), we’ve managed to find the best parts of each other again without forgetting the bad stuff, but rather with a better understanding of how to deal with and help each other through.

I’m beginning to be happy again. There are less days filled with tears and more days filled with smiles. I have more of a want to spend time with people rather than huddling under my duvet and sobbing myself to sleep. He reminds me what it feels like to be happy and how wonderful it can be spending time with family and friends making them happy. He smiles at me and his eyes sparkle and I love knowing that that is because of me. He is my Cyclist and I am his Crazii and we are happy.

I love being happy.